42 random thoughts on being 42

I didn’t do this last year, but, if I’m going to write about what’s on my mind, well, here you go.

1. Holy sh** I’m 42.

2. That was Jackie Robinson’s number, but you already knew that. (But do you know the last player to wear that number since it’s been retired throughout all of MLB?)


3. Bobby Kennedy died when he was 42. It’s amazing to realize how much he did in such a short amount of time. Like have 11 children, serve as Attorney General, and foster change in civil rights. 

4. Captain America is my favorite super hero.

5. Ok, so is Wonder Woman. They are equal favorites.

6. I’ve recently discovered cupping, which is why my back looks like I’m a red spotted Kimmie. Cupping and massage work well together.  

7. I have a thing for vintage running shoes. Ok, ok. I have a thing for shoes.

8. Sometimes I deadlift to Spandeau Ballet

9. My grandparents, Irene and Charles Smithbower, were married on November 11th (sometime in the 40’s…)

10. My favorite series of books as a kid was Frog and Toad.

11. My sports number throughout high school was 11, but up until then, I wore number 4 because my dad told me once that his dad liked Lou Gehrig and that was Lou Gehrig’s number. 

12. Holy Sh** I’m 42.

13. When I was a 10, my dad bought me a football from K Mart and it was pretty much the best day ever.

14. The most helpful thing I’ve ever done for myself is to find a good therapist. I’m grateful that I have one now.

15. This is my 47th blog post of 2018. 

16. This is my 211th blog post on this site. 

17. My beer of choice is Iron City Light. Sure it tastes like pee, but it’s home.

18. My favorite song to play on the guitar is Lodi by Creedance Clearwater Revival.

19. If I turned my car on right now, an easy listening AM radio station would come on. Because AM radio.

20. I’m currently listening to “The Happiness Advantage” by Shawn Achor - and it’s really good.

21. I have a weird obsession with the show Criminal Minds, even though it jumped the shark eight years ago. Also books about serial killers….

22. The furthest I’ve ever run is 20 miles. 

23. Then I had knee surgery.

24. I hiked 290 miles of Rocky Mountain National Park when I was 21. 

25. I once taught Freshman composition at the University of New Mexico. 

26. I used to write a weekly column for my hometown newspaper (The Ebensburg Newsleader). It was titled “At the Last Minute” because, shockingly, I wrote it at the last minute. I know. Clever.

27. My favorite all-time Steeler is a tie between Hines Ward and Jack Lambert. Because Jack Lambert.

28. I’m not doing this list next year.

29. Kind of like I’m not doing the Tough Mudder next year.

30. My mom went in to have me on November 9th and they had to induce labor a few times before I decided to come out, two days later. 

31. When I was in high school, I said I would live in New England with my basset hound named Bob, even though I’d never been to New England and had never owned a basset hound. (The only reason Rooney is not named Bob is that Sheila wouldn’t let me…)

32. I got my ears pierced when I was 17 years old. In Canada. It hurt. 

33. I had an obsession with the name Bob when I was in high school. That was my fish’s name. He’s buried in a band aid box in my parents’ back yard.

34. My favorite quote is “It’s never too late to become what you might have been” by George Elliot. I’m grateful that along with the aches and pains that come with aging, also comes the relief of knowing that I’m living the journey that I’m meant to be living, regardless of the wrong turns, right turns, and many side trips I’ve taken along the way. I might be hiking this mountain sideways, but damn I’m making the most of this journey. 

35. One of my other favorite quotes was given to me 22 years ago, right before my 20th birthday, by a priest in college who was the kindest, most influential people in my life. It goes like this  

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.
— Rainer Maria Rilke

37. As much as this quote frustrated me when Father Drexler handed it to me on a sheet of yellow legal paper 22 years ago, I can appreciate that somehow, this has turned out to be true.

38. But I still have questions…

39. I have found an editor who is helping me write a book. (I’m reserving the exclamation for the moment when I write the book. Don’t forget that according to my college professor Dr. Minot, we are only allowed 5 exclamation points in our lives…)

40. I have my struggles, and I have bad days, but I’m definitely living a very blessed life.

41. I’m not doing this next year.
42. Who’s kidding? Of course I will….

Seriously, thank you to all of you who take the time to visit my site and read what I write. I’m deeply humbled and honored that you would spend your valuable time with me.

Wishing you every peace and kindness, today and always.